super secrets revealed...
tomorrow my mom goes in for surgery and while neither one of us would admit it to your face, we'll both admit it to the blogosphere - we're scared.
scared by default, mostly. but scared because it's CANCER {hello?! that's scary!} and scared because there's an element of unknown... and a complete lack of control... which doesn't jive with either of us... you know, the very knowledgeable and controlled type.
i'm flying to st. george tomorrow for a day full of meetings... but i'll be glued to my phone {the norm} anxiously awaiting an update from good ol' scott. may my mind have the ability to focus for once. please, please, please focus.
say your prayers for her doctors. and the nursing staff. and the ones who bring her warm sheets when she's cold. and the one responsible for filling out her charts. and especially the ones responsible for analyzing her results.
i'm going to make a brave move here and say - even though you may not believe me - any emotional complications i may have had this week were compounded by the idea of my mom and her cancer adventure. maybe i would have stopped at the quivering lip if this wasn't a factor. maybe?
tomorrow my mom goes in for surgery and while neither one of us would admit it to your face, we'll both admit it to the blogosphere - we're scared.
scared by default, mostly. but scared because it's CANCER {hello?! that's scary!} and scared because there's an element of unknown... and a complete lack of control... which doesn't jive with either of us... you know, the very knowledgeable and controlled type.
i'm flying to st. george tomorrow for a day full of meetings... but i'll be glued to my phone {the norm} anxiously awaiting an update from good ol' scott. may my mind have the ability to focus for once. please, please, please focus.
say your prayers for her doctors. and the nursing staff. and the ones who bring her warm sheets when she's cold. and the one responsible for filling out her charts. and especially the ones responsible for analyzing her results.
i'm going to make a brave move here and say - even though you may not believe me - any emotional complications i may have had this week were compounded by the idea of my mom and her cancer adventure. maybe i would have stopped at the quivering lip if this wasn't a factor. maybe?
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