my new favorite song.

kind of cliche for me to be loving an ingrid michaelson song right now, but i had to laugh to myself this morning when it came on.

it's called "starting now" and it goes like this:

i want to crawl back inside my mother's womb

i want to shut out all the lights in the room

i want to start fresh, like baby in a sink

scrub away all these thoughts that i think of you.

so life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil

feel like i watch from 6 feet under the soil

still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears

but i recount the countless tears that i lost for you

but before you finally go there's one thig you should know: that i promise -

starting now i'll never know your name

starting now i'll never feel the same

starting now i wish you never came into my world

i want to crawl back into my bed of sin

i want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin

instead i'll wash them just like the kitchen rags with stains

spinning away every piece that remains of you

but before you finally go there's one thing you should know: that i promise -

starting now i'll never know your name

starting now i'll never feel the same

starting now i wish you never came into my world

it's my world, it's not ours anymore

it's my world, it's not ours anymore

starting now i'll never know your name

starting now i'll never feel the same

starting now i wish you never came into my world

sounds harsh. but it doesn't necessarily apply to boys, if that's what you were thinking. it applies to people in my life that cause me unnecessary grief. which, you know, seem to be abundant right now. wah.

i need a vacation... since the last one didn't really turn out so well in the long run.