my heart hurts.

i feel sick. i have a knot in my stomach. i cried in front of my class today. i feel helpless. i want to help. i have questions. i have no answers. i wonder WHY? i wonder HOW??? i cry. i laugh at the memories. i sing "our" song. i think of how many lives we actually touch. i wonder if we ever REALLY know someone? i take deep breaths. my stomach hurts. and so does my heart.