crash.

do you remember the time - long long ago - when e-mail was the new and improved form of communication? and remeber before then - if we wanted to communicate with our peeps, we'd have to make {and pay for} a long distance phone call? it's 2010 and i barely remember what that is, even.

the great switch to electronic communication went down in my young college years... so right about the time i was making friends with people from really far away {as in, outside of the 619 area code}.  hip, hip... it was the best, most exciting thing ever.

so in walks robin into my life.  the nor cal twin to my so cal self {i really just used the term so cal. oy vey.}.  at the time, it seemed very reasonable - crucial, really - to communicate every detail of every minute of our lives to each other.  summer breaks, christmas holidays, that time robin called to tell me she kissed roger, etc. - we could not skip a beat without and e-mail.  it was genius, really. and, like, so totally exciting to have new  mail - from a real live person - in my own personal inbox.

we'd invest HOURS in the composition of detail ridden e-mails to each other.  they were epic.  {but now - four kids later, on her end, and a day full of meetings on mine - it's the 21st century and we communicate in 160 characters or less up to 20 times a day.  details, schmetails.}

every once in a while, before the days of auto-save drafts, we'd experience these crash-and-burn/case of the disappearing e-mail/mourn the tragic loss of your blood, sweat, and tears/i hate my life situations where the email would literally escape the world wide web and fade away to the never-to-be-retrieved-again black hole of the virtual world.  it was THE MOST deflating thing.

there was nothing to be done about it... it just disappeared. 

all i could do is walk away from the computer and cry.

i mean, no sense in recreating it - it wouldn't be the same. 

not at all.

details were inevitably missed.

slight jabs and clever commentary lost.

oh, the pain was real.

and i'm feeling it all over again - right NOW

blogger just did the same thing to me after composing the MOST EPIC blog post ever.

forget that "save now" button right there.

my text, my photos, my formatting - gone.

gone, gone, GONE.

i'm left with nothing but a title and a clean slate of a text box.

i hate it.

so i'm walking away from the computer now.

i'll recreate it later, but know that it will only be half as good as the original.