why ak kenai dy.

kenapaaaaa!! argh! ak kenai dy! babi! dah la dok dkat umh... kwn dgn adik ku.! ish celaru2..! ak benci gila..
bila nk sambug blajaq ni... xbley gila dok umh..kira trigat.! dok corok mana pon trigat... hati cap busuk! bila kita kaco dy tau rimas.. bila bg warnig jgn kaco adik ku..pandai kta...! fuck! weh! awat ak kenai dy!! bodo benci gilaa!!! awat laaa esh.!!!  ak benci gila dy..! tp...hurmm..syg...aram! padia ni weh! perlu ka ak pkiaq psai love2 ni! haram...cool down! nothing ja pon..dy bdak2 yg just nk play around dat all..jgn layan.! biaq dy kuaq dari idup smooth...fuh! i hate this part.

life lessons.

i've always stood firm behind the idea that is is my blog and my venue.
no surprise there - right?

so, i get to speak honestly here.
{and sometimes, the consequences of running my sass pot mouth.}

this might be my most honest post yet.

first things first - i'm ashamed to admit that i'm 28 and i can cat-fight with the best of 'em. so un-adult of me.

but.

i was humbled

HUMBLED

HUMBLED

when my opposite fell into tragedy of the most unimaginable kind.

so what's a girl to do?

i'll tell you what -

you {i} forget it all

in. an. instant.

you {i} remember all the precautionary, fearful tears you {i} just cried over this very thing

you {i} buy a sweet treat

and a kind gift

that you {i} hope is as meaningful to her as you {i} intended it to be

and run to her side.
but most of all, you {i} hope, against all odds, that she believes in your sincerity.

all the while, you {i} kick yourself {myself} for being a 28 year old who allowed the trivial inhibit yourself {myself} from being available to someone {everyone, for that matter} if needed.

and then you call your mom and tell her you love her because you're {i'm} still lucky enough to have her.

lessons learned.
the hard way.

lucky strike.

777 posts.

whoa.

the cutest picture EVER?? period???

you decide. which is cuter?? this one or the first "cutest picture ever"??

hey! look at me!

i was surprised on my daily blog tour to see this pop up on the wonderful pattifriday dot com.
check it out!

New symbols tattoo and lower back tattoo designs

New symbols tattoo and lower back tattoo designs

mesej

                                                                  brmesej bsama sdia.

O : ak tggu kejatuhan ag ja 

X : bgus lah.(tetitik air mata)

O : ak puas dapat men kan ag ..suma terbalas.

X : puas ka? alhamdulillah

O : bla.bla.bla.tggu ag mati ja weh .p blah.! (mengalir besama hingusan.)

X : perlukah? ag tuhan ak ka perlu ka aku patut smbah kt ag?

O : bla.bla.bla.bla.. ur 2 cheap.! ( beribu air mata mngalir.)

so den..then end. ak nk tidoq la weh.. trillion of tears i fall

gosh! kuat fara kuat! just dugaan.nothing 2 worry about.

let it go... please my heart! let it goes smooth 4 me to handle it..

just a small kind of feel. nothig to worried about.. b cool!

kuat fara kuat! nothing gonna make me feel bad..

i dont want to change back .. or turn back to my super black things i've done.!

cool.. huh!

Choosing Picture Tribal Tattoo

Choosing Picture Tribal Tattoo..

Choosing Tribal Tattoo Picture is correct. There are several things you should know, the first is the type of images must be in accordance with what you like. The second is the color selection should match the image that is in the picture, it must match .

Choosing Picture Tribal Tattoo

Choosing Picture Tribal Tattoo..

Choosing Tribal Tattoo Picture is correct. There are several things you should know, the first is the type of images must be in accordance with what you like. The second is the color selection should match the image that is in the picture, it must match .

A Beautiful From Custom Tattoo

A Beautiful From Custom Tattoo...

Beautiful From Custom Tattoo.Many people like custom tattoo, because it seems clear picture on your skin, the most important is the image that you create a match or conform to your body.
select the best picture you like.

A Beautiful From Custom Tattoo

A Beautiful From Custom Tattoo...

Beautiful From Custom Tattoo.Many people like custom tattoo, because it seems clear picture on your skin, the most important is the image that you create a match or conform to your body.
select the best picture you like.

More View Tribal Tattoo

More View Tribal Tattoo ..

Tribal tattoo pictures that make your body will be very visible among all the tattoo Tribal.Ini is an example of tribal tattoo that you like.

More View Tribal Tattoo

More View Tribal Tattoo ..

Tribal tattoo pictures that make your body will be very visible among all the tattoo Tribal.Ini is an example of tribal tattoo that you like.

still. in.love

I'm so in love

I'm still in love

I've never been in love quite before

until I saw your face

and watching stars without you

my soul cries

my heaving heart

is full of pain

when we're apart

the aching

I'm kissing you

I'm kissing you

You're my father

you're my soldier

you protect me, boy you save me

you're my best friend

you're my husband

you are my doctor, counselor,

provider, professor, my everything

And I love you, I love you, I love you, yes I love you

I need you, I need you, I need you, I can't live without you

I trust you, I trust you, with every ounce of me

Just teach me, boy teach me, just take me

When we make love I can feel all your spirit

deep inside of me

Baby you're so pure

I'm Kissing you forever, and ever, and ever

I love Kissing you (kissing you, kissing you)

Boy I love everything about you baby

it's been so many years since we fell in love

we got something special baby

we can cry together

we can grow together

be ourselves together

and I love you more than music

yes I love you more than music

terima apa hakikat yang perlu ak face skrag.

dedicate to my 2years lover..

but in de end.. 

i fall apart.

u always.even u hurt me so.

i dont care..

till my heart going to broken n crash.

this is my heart.u cannot blame it.

what even u said about me.

i dont care.

coz i knw my heart for u

and even u got ur gf.

i will slow down with my heart.

till i can forget u

end

speaking of cakes.

i got a phone call from a friend's wife's neighbor
{yeah, i'm working with three degrees of separation here}
asking if i'd be willing to make a cake for her mother-in-law's first born

{enter degree four and five}

i said yes.
{that's what i do. i say yes.}

she happens to need it on, like, the busiest day of my life, but i said yes
{because i don't say no.}

even better - she asked how much and i said "dont' worry about it"

{because i don't know how to do things for money.}

she doesn't know what she wants. just chocloate. that's all i'm working with.
mousse filling or fruit filling, even??

so.

since i don't know degrees 2 through 5...

and i don't know their taste...

i don't know if, when i get my cake skills on...
if they'll think i've got cake skills at all.

here's to free stranger cake baking.

bunting.

so, all the while we were planning jen and ed's wedding, we called them "used car lot flags" or "penant flags" but apparently, the crafting world has created a clever name for them.

it's called bunting

and the world is catching on.

so, check this out. design*sponge posted pictures of these cake kits this morning.

cute, eh?

oh, WAIT... remember when i made that cake six months ago?

baker's twine, shish-ka-bob sticks, n' all.

what's the crafty-in-the-kitchen equivalent of being fashion forward?
... because i just earned that merit badge.

p.s. why didn't i think to sell that stick/triangle paper/string kit on the internet and make millions?

seronok

sronok bila ad msalah...kita blajaq dari kesilapan.. n blajaq untuk matang..dunia xakn putus dgn cabaran dugaan.. so ak harus kuat .. mmg bnda ni suma ats pala ak.. salah aku..kesilapan lama jgn dilaku kn kembali.. ak try untk berubh..owg mmg lmpak ak nyusah kn sbb depa dh leh smbung blajaq. or depa dh blajaq tggi2..or pndag rendah..semua manusia tlah dtetap kn oleh tuhan dgn kelebihan dy sndiri..about love? tolak tepi..xperlu bg ak..ak xkesah owg xsuka ak..sbb ad owg lebh syg ak..itu mak ku..ku bt pragai mcm mna pon ... nk lari duk umh pak ku kaa.. nk terus keluar n kembali dgn duit yg byk.. pon mak ku xbg..dy bg tunjuk ajaq kt ku.. ku xperlu bf..ak xperlu adikbradik ak yg igin ak mati.. even mak ku maki mcm2.. sbb dy nk tgk ak happy dgn ap ak achieve ...dy byk gtau kt ku... dsbb kn otak yg iginkn lebh kepada enjoy..ak bt xtau..skarag bru ku sdaq..mak ak mmg perlu ak.. ak xperlu owg yg sakit kn ati ku ... ak xperlu dlm dunia ni..ak nk mak ku jaaa.. dy dorog ku..even dy bg ku nages sakit . skrag dy bg ku sedaq.. owg ak kta pa depa perlu kata..tp owg xkn tau ap akn jd hari sterus nya... owg bley mnilai tp owg xleh mmbaca naluri ssowg manusia kerana mreka bkn tuhan kita.. hidup lebih matag lebh better... ak xperlu love dlm idup ku.. xperlu.. satu merugikn air mata... tp keiginn igin dkogsi bsama.. ksah silam biaq tgai tulag2 yg reput saja.. even owg ttp kta ak mcm 2..tp depa bkn ak.. so who care.. ak xperlu tau pa owg kta.. owg xperlu ak. owg xpnah tau bik tau psai idup ku.wat pa ku ssh2 nk cri manusia mcm 2? ak ad bnda brharga.. damn berharga.! adalh idup ak..otak ak.hati ak family ak.. love is not for share..but it all about complicated.ak perlu kwan rapat sja.. itu yg penting... manusia xkn lari dari kehidupan masalah nya.. even owg yg bru dpt idup selesa..bila2 msa akn jatuh.. n owg itu akn cuba bgun balik.. dgn petologn owg laen... biar owg nk pk bkn2.. ak senag bila dgq owg kta kt ak..suka.. wat goes around come around ..dunia beputar..bgitu jgak msalah n idup...i do my best 2 live without people beside me.. i must do it for my own gud.. help people yg jatuh xbererti kta dapt balasan d sni..tp sana..ak rasa snag bila owg skelilig tlg igt kn ak psai agama..thanx god.brubah keselsaan diri sndiri bkn untk owg ats diri kita....amin.

Buddhist Tattoos

Buddhist tattoos are clearly very appealing in terms of style and artwork, however the designs themselves represent a timeless culture which are dedicated to their philosophy and practices of buddhism.

Buddhist tattoos are most commonly designed as the seated buddha with his hands in the form the mudra (dharmachakra) which symbolizes the setting into motion of the wheel of teaching the dharma.

Have a look through this buddhist tattoo gallery and you just might find the perfect buddhist tattoo design you've been searching for.

Most buddhist tattoos represent a very peaceful and tranquil environment.



Buddhist tattoo are often seen alongside flower designs, specially the lotus flower.

Many buddhist cultures believe that tattoo artwork is a sacred practice and monks often double as tattoo artists.

Buddhist Tattoos

Buddhist tattoos are clearly very appealing in terms of style and artwork, however the designs themselves represent a timeless culture which are dedicated to their philosophy and practices of buddhism.

Buddhist tattoos are most commonly designed as the seated buddha with his hands in the form the mudra (dharmachakra) which symbolizes the setting into motion of the wheel of teaching the dharma.

Have a look through this buddhist tattoo gallery and you just might find the perfect buddhist tattoo design you've been searching for.

Most buddhist tattoos represent a very peaceful and tranquil environment.



Buddhist tattoo are often seen alongside flower designs, specially the lotus flower.

Many buddhist cultures believe that tattoo artwork is a sacred practice and monks often double as tattoo artists.

weird nature

Sweet is the lore which Nature brings;
Our meddling intellect
Mis-shapes the beauteous forms of things:
We murder to dissect.
Wordswoth, 'The Tables Turned'

Intellectualizing nature feels weird to me... alien.



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